Your story reminds me of my own experiences w/ my first appointment over 4 years ago at a small clinic that provides care for LGBTQs. I really didnt know what to expect from HRT. I figured that I would "dip my toes in the water" so to speak, and if I didnt like it, simply stop. Well,, as it turned out, I LOVED what being on HRT did for me. The journey of a thousand miles begins w/ a single step :)