This certainly matches many of the same data points of my own childhood and Teenage years. But Im a slow learner I guess. It wasnt until about 20 years ago when I heard the term, "male lesbian", initially as a kind of joke line, that the gears started to turn,. I often wondered why in nearly any type of porn/erotica that I saw, watched, or read, I ALWAYS gravitated to the woman's POV,. And all those years of secretly cross dressing started to make sense. Five years ago, I started HRT and never looked back :)