Jaz, Thanks for sharing your insight on the internal tug of war between our male and female identities. Since coming out, I love how other women have accepted me as one of their own. While Im still learning to navigate that social sphere, I also knew that I was never entirely comfortable in male dominated spaces. Ive long known that I wasnt Gay, as the thought of being w/ a guy, as a guy, did absolutely zero for me. But,, the thought of being w/ a guy as a woman, just sent me into orbit. Ive always seen myself, sexually, from a female POV. Prior to transitioning, I just wrote this off as an inconvenient fetish. But I now know that this was my female side trying to break free. While Im still very much attracted to (other)females, both Cis(my Wife included), as well as other Trans women. Im also hot for guys too. And its not just the sexual aspects; I want to be held, and kissed, and loved. I want to be the woman.