I was constantly confronted w/ that feeling of both lust AND envy; Seeing an attractive Female and wanting to both, do her AND be her a the same time. Lust and Envy; two of the Seven Deadly Sins. That can seriously mess w/ your head,. Speaking of stories, did you ever read a novel called, Regiment Of Women? I first read it back, 40 yrs ago. I was saddened when I learned that the author, Thomas Berger, has passed away a few yrs ago.