I think what scares me about the idea of being in love w/ a guy, is giving up some degree of emotional(and physical?) autonomy. Im not sure that I could go there, or want to. Where as I can still easily see being in love, as a Lesbian, w/ my Wife(still) and a couple of other females Ive known earlier in life. Since transitioning, and now, having (most of) the atributes of a Cis female, its given me license to explore things more. One thing I discovered early on is that knowing a guy desires me as a female, feeds my desire for him.