I think much of the shame that is associated with these feelings are two fold: One, how could it be that ANY Cishet guy, ever want to be a, woman. Disgusting, right? And two, acknowledging that Cis women feel authentic sexual desire, and that a guy could ever feel it could be any better. I still find women attractive, but suddenly that Im also into guys as well. However in my past, I NEVER could EVER bring myself to find a guy attractive or have romantic feelings for one. The thought of being with a guy as a guy; ZERO, goose eggs, flatline, nadda. However now, the image of myself being with a guy as a woman, whoa yes,, ;)