You may also find this thought exercise helpful:

https://radiodf.medium.com/are-you-transgender-lets-see-489727e91577

I have often been lauded for being so "brave" to come out, especially later in life( I was 59 at the time, 3 yrs ago). But in truth, I have always felt that I was being brave, staying in the closet. And the simple fact was, I didnt have it in me to remain that way any longer.