As someone in the same Boomer demographic and also having transitioned "later in life" , I have often wrestled w/ the my past male existence and how I am today. I know all that history, what I often refer to as my "template" can never be fully erased. And you know what? I dont want to erase it. There are tons of great memories there; Friends family, jobs, all of it. Sure there are some things that Id love to go back and experience as a female. And come to think of it, there are a few moments that I did, but just never realized at the time that I was experiencing it as a female. However being drenched in Testosterone, it blocked most those feelings from surfacing.